What's the Aftermath?

The seconds are ticking fast until my death
My tears freeze on my face
My cries stop mid-sound
Suddenly I'm not sure if I want this,
Want my death
What happens when I die?
Will I feel?
Will I have another life, full of eternity?
What if they punish me of my sins
For the rest of my forever
Will my only good memories, that are just of you
Be banished from my mind?
Will the blood run like a river through my skin?
Will I be shown the pain I caused you,
When I left?