Bliss Pills

I wash the pills of bliss down
With the cold, hard vodka
The rush pounds to my head
As I smile knowing my little vacation
Is oh, so near
When the pain I'm constantly feeling
Finally goes numb
I know I disappoint you
I know I worry you
I know it hurts you
Because of what I do
Swiftly all those thoughts fade away,
I'm so happy, so full of energy,
I'm so light and so in love,
You hurt me,
But right now,
I don't care,
Right now,
Nothing can hurt me,
I'm finally
"okay"
With my bliss pills,
Just like I would be,
If you hadn't pushed me away.