An Ode To A Broken Heart

#1: The Suicidal Heart By Kenishiro (30/07/05)
I have no idea why this title pop up into my head, the rest of the poem came to me two nights in a row. I tried to ignored it at first but I can't and it drove me crazy. So after writting it down and a few edit later this poem came to be. The two last verse was not supposed to be there but I don't want it to sound like a suicide letter.

The Suicidal Heart

I wanted to kill myself,
So I won't have to remember you,
It's better than sulking,
Better than waste my tears crying,

I wanted to kill myself,
So I won't have to be reminded of you,
It's better than forgiving,
Better than waste my time forgetting,

I wanted to kill myself,
So I won't be haunted by you,
It's better than moving on,
Better than keeping my hopes on,

I wanted to kill myself,
So I won't be in trouble anymore,
It's better than letting go,
Better than how I was before,

Yet now, I dare not to do so,
Ending my life so swiftly,
Giving up so easily,
Missing all the great opportunity,

Now that I know,
Though life is full of sorrow,
There's always be a better tomorrow.

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