Trying to find myself

In the web of lies

I try so desperately to hide

I don't know who I am anymore

When I see myself in the mirror

I don't recognize me

It's like I'm a different person

On the outside than the inside

And it KILLS me so

I cannot be me

For the fear of rejection

And teasing and taunting

Is just too much too bare

I cannot take anymore pain

I fear that my already shattered heart

Will break

Putting up an act

Of being cold, emotionless, and distant

Not caring about anyone

Or anything

When deep down I am kind, loving, and broken

I'm so lost

So afraid of myself

Save me from the nightmare that I have become

For I fear

That I will be the death of me