Afterwards

After your death, it feels so different.

I feel so lonely even though we weren't close.

A part of me is missing and I can't patch that up.

I never knew how much you loved me until after your death.

There's a hole in my heart.

That hole is where you were when you were alive.

I miss you more now than ever before.

I need you more now than ever before.

I look up at the sky each day and think of you.

You're suffering is over.

You're soul is at rest.

We all miss your smile.

No more crying at night.

No more blaming myself for not saying goodbye.

No more guilt or crying.

You're at rest in a better place.

You'll never be forgotten.

You're always in my heart.

The pain is all over.

And you're happier where you are.

So this is goodbye.

But the crying will not stop.

The hole will not heal.

The space will not close.