She's trying hard to find the reasons why she hurts inside

Everyone seems to have a theory for the way she is

She can tell from the look in their eyes as they pass her by

But no theory is fitting

They don't know why

But how can they when not even she does

She locks herself away

She shuts out every world but her own

She tries to remember a time when she didn't feel so alone

In her secret world

She sighs & she thinks

She sits & she drinks

She tries to forget the pain

Before it drives her insane

She's too afraid to reach out

Too afraid of being hurt again

She too afraid of losing to love again

She thinks she'd rather be lonely & alone

Rather than loving & losing again

She locks herself away

She shuts out every world but her own

She tries to remember a time when she didn't feel so alone

In her secret world

She sighs & she thinks

She sits & she drinks

She tries to forget the pain

Before it drives her insane

Author's Note: Originally written on December 13, 2004.