The Aftermath

I cried today

And the day before

And tonight I believe

That I will cry more

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Every night that's passed

Since you stole from me

Has been sleepless and

Tormented, set me free

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No justice will ever help

The hollowness inside prevails

I see your face so vividly

A pain like a bed of nails

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My tears replace my smile

Innocence shattered forever

I never asked for what you gave

Yet you continued your endeavour

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My heart so empty inside

That I cry every night

No one understands me now

None can sympathize with my plight.

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My lover, my closet friend

Neither can help when I cry

Nothing changes, I just ache

And wish over and over again to die.

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It's been five years and still

I'm hardly healed inside

The nightmares still come to me

I'm left wishing that I'd died.

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I feel everything again

The stabs wounds, the pain

The loss of my innocence

And the icy chill of the rain.

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You left me bleeding in the rain,

You took what I'd been saving

Now I cry and beg forgiveness

On my knees at night, I'm praying.

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Praying for forgiveness

Of my impurities

That were forced upon me

By your insecurities.

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You raped me five years ago

And have done so every night since

For what you did, you evil man

There is no recompence.

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My lover tries to heal me

He tries to keep me safe

But the damage has been done

To this broken waif.

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I cannot speak up about

The things you did to me

Instead I wake up daily

Hoping to find reprieve.

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Tainted Muse

11th of December, 2005