You were ever watchful,
Always seeming to trail behind me,
But my shadow easily hid your shining face
As you did everything in your power to resurface.
Your own identity is all you wished for,
But mine already stood out too brightly
With my odd sense of myself and everything around me.
I watched you retreat within yourself
As I tried to move aside
And let you personality glow brilliantly.
But that color has long been gone
As you've faded into the pulsating crowd
Of sweaty bodies and screaming fans
Making it hard to coax out that being I knew well
From deep inside your heart.
Instead, the person I now reveal to the world
Is a lackluster one,
Blending simply into the darkness
You've been pushed into for so long.
And it was all my doing,
With my inconceivable detachment.
You always said I was perfect
With my good grades and my kind manner,
But I know differently.
I envy your clichéd life of drama
With love and music and family
And I know you sadly envy mine.
So I'll try once again to stand aside
And show that smile we've wanted to remember,
Easily lost among the constant sadness and frailty
As you slowly becoming someone again.
Now I silently step out of your path,
Allowing myself to be cast into your shadow.