No matter what it is I'm doing

Still I'm always thinking of you

Imagining you as though you never left

I didn't know until it was too late

I guess none of us did

But still I find myself wondering why

And I look up at the sky

Trying to remember when it didn't seem so dark

I can't lie I do wonder why

And no matter how much we all wish to undo what happened that cold New England night

No star in the vast indigo sky can grant this impossible wish

I know that you'll always be a part of me

I think of you each minute of each day

And there's not a thing anyone can say to change how I've always loved you

Though several have tried & all will continue to fail

I can't lie I do wonder why

And no matter how much we all wish to undo what happened that cold New England night

No star in the vast indigo sky can grant this impossible wish

I can still see you here

And I still can't believe you're really gone

I'm told it's beautiful to miss someone so much

But they don't feel the pain I feel when I know my impossible wish can never come true

So now I'll wait as long as I have to until I can be with you again

I can't lie I do wonder why

Without you I'll never be the same again

You walked alone

You cried on your own

And I hate that you died alone

Especially that way

I can't lie

I do wonder why you felt it had to end that cold New England night

Author's Note: Originally written on December 2, 2005. And written for the exact same guy I've written so many others for. Namely "But It Was You".