Where am I supposed to begin when we're talking about this

When we're talking about how your life ended

That knife didn't stop with you

It's still cutting through all of us even as I speak now

What did you think you'd done

That was so horrible that you had to do that to escape it

Was it really what happened that night

Had they finally gotten to you

Finally made you believe you'd never be back where you were

It sickens me to think that might be true

But still I'll always miss you

So many may never know the hell I'm going through now

There's no one who could ever take your place

I wish so much that you hadn't gone like you did

I'll never think of that place the same again

But I don't blame you

I miss you too much to

What did you think you'd done

That was so horrible that you had to do that to escape it

Was it really what happened that night

Had they finally gotten to you

Finally made you believe you'd never be back where you were

It sickens me to think that might be true

But still I'll always miss you

How is it no one knew

All of your pain

All that led up to that night

How is it only you knew how that night would end

Author's Note: Originally written on December 3, 2005.