Yes, I Loved Him

I'm lying here
Just lying here with my eyes shut
Asking for your love
Wishing you would take me as I am
As I am.

Something unexpected
And yet so familiar
Your hand rests upon my head
But then you turn away.

I pretend it's all OK
There there are no feelings there
When really, they run so deep
So deep that I cannot
find the place they start
Even if I wanted to.

Eyes still tightly shut
I look at you
But you left me lifetimes ago.