delving too deep
into sated mind
anxiety makes one a pushover
i wondered what made you
spit like that
then i realized it was
just your way of saying
"god i'm sexy"
and i laughed at the wrong time
but that's okay
because this outing is your last
with me
and i know i'm pulling the cliché
when i pull this black little trigger

but dearie –

the thought of sharing you
makes me want to vomit
all over your sk8er shoes