For Matthew

Well I'm not who you thought I was

Who you wished who you remembered

Cause it's been a long time hon

And time kills everything

I left when you stayed

I took a road trip into hell

While you stayed cooling your heals

In a mixture of artistic adoration

And new-found friends

Did you spare a thought for me

As I lay dying crying

Hating you but hating me more

You found your friends

And I found a switchblade

Chocking on your words

Your sweet kindly letter

Five fucking years

Never seemed so short