1. Swollen Eyes…

You.

Watching me

Watching you

I can barely see.

Blackblue bruises and

Maybe damaged

Corneas…

The tears sting.

Just as well.

I don't want to see

Anyway.

2. Broken Ears…

I don't hear the

Laughing,

The whispering

Anymore, Mom!

All I hear is

In my head…

For once in my

Goddamn life!

Thank God for that!

I thought I was

Going crazy!

3. Forced Heartbeat…

Thump…thump…

My heart beats on

Can't…

Stop…

Me…

Now…

Hallelujah life support.

I watch the green lines

Spike and crackle.

4. Prescription Drugs…

Thank you, everyday life,

For make prescription drugs a

Need

Instead of a

Want.

No wonder

I always find my romance

In the emergency room.

5. Nervous Laughter…

I am not blind.

I am not deaf.

Thump…thump…beep and a

Glass of water.

This irony tastes like

Prozac.

6. Recovery…

A new manila folder and

Four bright pink pills a day…

I'm on my way.

Appointments twice a week,

A calendar with puppies on it…

Just wait.

7. Relapse…

Back again…

I want you out of this room

When that machine goes off…

Do you hear me?!

Am I mute?!

I guess not…

Alone once again.