"The Middling Road"

I seek freedom. To write, to live, to feel.

Inhibitions to destroy, to make end.

I want to find and grasp only what's real

Fear nor shrink not, my thoughts in strength defend.

And yet I know and must honestly admit

Too often reticence keeps me safe, dry

Loss of control is no better transit

I know one way alone only leads life awry.

And so, I have to take a middling road,

To find futures that won't lead to decay

And while this struggle seems a heavy load

I must say for me there's no other way

To sum in two words this mindset I seek,

I wish to become bold and yet humble, meek.