i have disappointed you

why do you still hate me

i'm so sorry this is true

but you could still let me be

just once i've screwed up

it wasted some days

can I be forgiven by luck

find my way out this maze

i will do much better now

that promise is sincere

all I ask is how

did I stay in such fear

why do I still feel so ashamed

when I had so much fun

getting my identity claimed

but ended up without one

have I been broken beyond repair

or may I retrace my steps

will I be able to just take care

or relay on those to forget

what is my next move

the king or the queen

what will this all prove

what I lack in-between

nothing I say taken to thought

just useless waves of sound

that no one has caught

just directed to the ground

my every thought and word

across the checkered table

wish this never had occurred

but I remain stuck in this fable

take just one small dose

for reality will appear

hold this memory close

for it had only lasted a tear