Why do I still play this game?

I can't win

The rules always change

My life means nothing to me

I can easily flush it down the drain

My mind goes blank

This picture is painted before me

The dark colors reveled

The shadows disappear

I can't recall anything before I blank

Thoughts rush vividly through my mind

I see this bright field of flowers

Everyone pays attention to

Then this vast wasteland

No one attends to

I come back to my senses

I'm back to reality

I fall to my knees

Gravity has a strange effect upon me

My heart races

It's hard to breath

I'm starting to go blind

As those same shadows close in on me

Everything makes sense

Its not meant to be

With one last breath

I wish I could say

That I loved my life

Before I go away