you stare into my deep drowning eyes,

and you ask me what the matter.

but what you dont know,

cant hurt you.

I am still drowning

in a world where i never belonged.

I'm still dying, falling,

even while I lie in your arms.

My dark past denies my mind peace.

I cannot forget my secrets,

Yet nor can they spill from my lips.

I must stay locked inside.

I love you too much,

to take you with me,

while i fall in the black abbyss,

while i fall an eternal death.

I love you too much to let you see my core,

for none other has survived seeing me unmasked.

None other has survived the exposure to so much black rage.

So save your self. and let me be.