Why Mommy?

I watched you die slowly,

During the last couple years,

So now the question comes to mind,

Why didn't I pay attention to your cry for help?

Now I write this poem,

Every letter, bloodstained, tear-stained,

I'm drowning in my misery,

Choking on your death,

I knew you needed me,

So why wasn't I there?

They said you needed some time alone,

I didn't know it would last forever,

You ripped my heart out,

And now it drips,

Down my sleeve,

I lost more than you,

I lost a piece of me,

Pieces of me,

In pill form,

As you swallow them,

For the last sleep of your life,

I will always miss you,

But you didn't miss me enough,

To stay.