"So Close"

You're so close to me,

So dear to my heart.

It's hard to express how I feel

When we're apart.

It stresses my mind,

Clogs my vision to see

The problems I have

When you're without me.

You're no more than a friend,

And still I'm confused,

As I wander around

"Acting" amused.

I'm stretching my limits.

I'm thinking too much.

I'll never really have you.

You'll always be with "such" and "such".

You're close, but you're far.

You're trusting, but not.

I could tell you anything,

But only if you give me the heads up.

What am I doing?

Where should I go?

I don't want to lose you.

But I'm not really in control.