dreams do come true

i dream of Heaven (because God doesn't deserve
such a((n)) un-beautiful angel with scars scatter
-ed across her body and with tattered and torn
wings). and i hear people say that suicides
don't go to Heaven because they weren't
thinking of Him but only of themselves.

but what if life is too cruel that being with Him
is the only thing that makes you happy?
(is that even possible/thinkable?)

because i was never meant to
bleed/cry/vomit like this.

(i hear people say that)
dreams do come true.

April 7, 2006