I want to tell my father I love him,
I want to tell him, that I forgive all that he did
I want to tell my father that it's okay
that he ran so far away
but I can't, cause it's not okay that he's gone
so instead
I want to tell my father,
I hate him and that he has no affect upon my life
I want to tell my father
to fuck of, to screw himself
cause no one else wants to
and no one else needs to
but no, I can't, so I wait and I wait
to tell my father, that I'm sorry
for being a bad daughter
for failing him
for all of these years.