April Showers

it's time to tear up
to let those drops fall
one
last
time
over them, over you, over my incompetence.

it's time to sing
my lyrics of naive hope
one
last
time
over them, over you, over this.

it's time to re-live
these make-believe memories,
fantasies, those times when my head
chose to lie to the heart...

the pain of such obsessions,
unbearable.

it's time to put on those songs
the one's i listened
to cry
over them?
over you?
a nonexistent situation, except in my sleep.

you (the reader) wouldn't understand
the 8 years of history i will have to erase
to move on, to get over this

it's time to accept my delusions,
welcome new slangs
new melodies..

but i can't believe it's true,
yet it's happening

you're still the only song i want to hear..

no,acceptance can't elude me
nor can i run away from reality
not anymore,

april showers in a new era,
there will be beauty from the breakdown.

14/04/06