my phone rang

when i was sitting alone in a hotel room

chain smoking

talking to you at four in the morning

wearing my heart on the sole of my shoe

i wish i could have sat there with you

i could have

i would have sat with you for days

but the sun and the traffic were making me lazy

i was losing myself in the sound of your voice

until i coughed, shook myself awake

it wasn't the same

i could hear myself saying

unless you can bear the weight

not until you're sure

not until you've finished crying

because it's been a long road to alright

but unlike you, i'm getting there one step at a time