Do you know how

To describe betrayal

Or the sensation

You receive when you

Know someone is


Straight to your face?

It feels like


Is taking a knife

And stabbing you

And slashing you

Until you've fallen,

Bleeding and dying.

It feels like

A black hole

Had just opened up

And is threatening to


You up whole.

And I wonder,

If maybe,

Just maybe,

I'm being paranoid,

That it wasn't a lie,

That it really was the truth,

But I know,

That's it not.

And I just sit,

Willing my tears back,

Not to fall,

Not to drop,

Trying to think of anything

But of what they did.