Underlying Bitterness

Why do I feel like
this is all a game we play?
The constant "I love you's"
"hello's" and "goodbye's,"
they're all formality.

while we ignore
and avoid
the underlying issue
because if we address it
you again
simply prove
that you love him more than me.

and I thought I was done with this,
the bitterness I mean,
I just want to let go,
but it keeps coming back
with your lies
and inconsistencies.

And the memories
are haunting me
invading my dreams

and every glance is
a slap in the face
and every word is
a knife to the heart

maybe I'm
over-dramatizing things
but I just want
a resolution