I sleep but hear and see all around me
The blood within me seethes with longing
The moonlight cuts across my body with the subtlety of a razorblade
Yet my eyes are framed in darkness
My fingers itch with the desire to etch an image with scarlet ink
A hate and love with primitive ancestry create a nexus in my heart
A convergence that echoes through my soul
The emptiness surprises even I
If I could feel for a moment anything that I don't feel now
Would take it without hesitance
Yet prefer to feel nothing
Than this queer contradiction
Lift my pale body from the scene
Staring at violet-shaded skin
I want to feel a beat again
That begins within an inner sanctum and flows throughout
If the impossible was here
Could find a reason for my existence
My lips would part to expose myself
And grin with contentment