Regret and Forgiveness
Regret is something I feel often.
I've done several things I regret, loving you was one of them.
Falling in love, listening to friends, living this pathetic life…I've regretted all that in this fucked up world.
I opened my arms to you, held you tight against all dangers, and you repaid me by shredding my confidence
You tore into my heart like I was just an animal you could use for your own twisted schemes.
But I'm not. And I'm here to make you pay.
Remember long ago, when I looked into your crystalline eyes and told you I loved you? Well, that was a lie, a begotten thought from another age.
There is only one person I love. Not you.
You wonder who? Well, let me tell you. Remember your best friend, the one you introduced me to when we started upon this path of self-denial?
Surprising, is it not? Surprising that I love her and not you?
Every time I look into your eyes, I see deceit and betrayal flare up. I can't live that sort of life, the one where I have no idea what will happen next.
With her, I see caring, compassion and love…
She loves me for who I am on the inside, a side I would have shown you, but now I never will.
I will never forgive you, I can promise you. You hurt my soul to deep for that.
If we ever talk civil to one another again, it will be down the barrel of a Colt in my grasp. And if you ever lie to me again…
I will send your soul to the Netherworld…