My Darling,

I know that by the time you find this I shan't be with you anymore. The endless mercy of time will tire out and take me deeply into the violent night. I'll be gone from your life and of mine. Leaving behind nothing but a crease of my life and a gentle mass of past memories, intertwining with the intricate bruising of my Love in each heart.

Because tonight I plan on dying.

A mutual conclusion made bya tumultuous mind and pacing heart.

I feel the cold seeping into me. Pouring into my veins and flashing thorough my eyelids like a savage storm.

I don't see the beauty anymore. I don't see the vibrancy and pretentious definitions. I beg that my fingertips could hold on to the seedless flowers bursting into fire and setting ablaze the Earth's passionate expense.

I don't feel alive, open, hurt or abandoned. I see the precious lights glimmer only metres away and yet it's out of my reach and lost into the silences. The distance begotten. The laughter I felt only archaic recollections to my being now.

I wish I could tell you how much I would miss you. Your Love and perfect smile. Your skin and elegant nature. Your profound thrills that make every day worth being battered for.

I will forever play your pretty tune in my music hall. I will always encrypt the patterns in the woven peace of your light mind. I shall behold new meanings of old melodies, chanted in the moment of honour, valour, glory, accolade, esteem, reverence, obeisance, veneration, integrity, renown…I will sing the requiem of the forgotten souls to Lucifer. He will listen.

Tears will spill as I drink up poison; blood will percolate as the knife pierces my throat; Bullets will ring out as the gun is loaded; my heart will stop as it breaks…

But hush. Don't cry…

I Love you

x