My Secret Heart…

"The Truth About Forever"

What should I do when my heart if torn? I want to be free, but I want to be loved. The truth about forever is that you always have to choose. There's no going back, no going forward. You're stuck in the here and now and living for the moment. No more normalties, only anomalies. Never normal, never. Should I die to live or live to die? Should I stay or go? Him or me? Now or never? Then or now? Will I live to see the sun rise tomorrow with him? Or will I wake up alone forever? The truth about forever is that you will always want something more. To live and die for something more. No more, no less. I have to decide now, not later. I live for the moment, not for the now. Will I ever love again? Will I ever cry again? Will I ever pick up my pen and write again? Should I stand out or fade away? Be in the crowd or fade into the wall? Will I ever see a sunset with him again? Sweet candy or passionate flavor? Shall I never again see his smile just for me? Will I soon blend into the wall while he smiles at someone else? Or will I always feel his hand on the small of my back? Will he give me a diamond or will I always remain alone? Will I ever feel loved by him or am I just another girl? The truth about forever is what you decide…