Never expected that I would fall

For I thought it was just a simple game

But then things changed

As time passed by

Once hurt, I vowed never to set foot

Never to feel anything such as love

That I'd turn back away

Runaway as fast as I could

But then…

How would I know

That I would feel this way for you

How would I know

That you'd feel the same way for me

I knew all the consequences

Expected hazards that I might face

Anticipated that I might get hurt again

But still, I took the risk

So I embraced this feeling with open arms

And felt the happiness and contentment

That I once longed for

A very long time ago…

I believed in the sincerity

Trust, security, and everything else

Certain that you would keep your promises,

Certain that you would never leave me

You taught me how to laugh

You taught me how to cry

You taught me how to trust again

You taught me how to love and live again

But then…

A relationship could never be perfect

Somewhere, sometime

A stumbling block would appear

Although it was difficult,

I still believed in us

Still believed that we could make it though

Still believed that we could carry on

I admit, I thought that we would fall apart

But I never entertained the thought

For whenever it crossed my mind,

I felt afraid to lose the one I loved most

I prayed that we make it through

Because I didn't want us to break,

I didn't want to fall apart

Because I'm in love with you

So I continued to fight

I relied on you for the strength

Said to myself that it would be fine

Said to myself that I would never abandon you

But it was you who surrendered in the end

How could I continue to fight

If the one I've been fighting for already gave up

And that it was futile to struggle…

There was nothing I could say

Deep inside was turmoil

I tried to hide my pain, my tears

I was devastated at the disclosure

I wished that you could have said that you never loved me

Rather than to hear from you that it was useless anyway

And I hated you for it…

Hated you and loved you at the same time…

You wanted me to make a decision

But how could I make it with a confused mind

I refused to let go of you

But you are already letting me go

Now, I'm thinking

Can I stand alone without you?

Can I really stand alone?

Can I even try?

I said I understand why you're doing this

I said that it was alright

But deep in my heart, reality sinks in

I didn't understand, it wasn't alright

Since it seemed you're setting me free

I'd try to accept it but with a heavy heart

Knowing that I'd be alone for the longest time

Knowing that it would be the last time

For this time, for sure, I'll never love again

That I'm willing to kill all what's left

To let my heart die rather than fill it with hatred

I'd let it die rather than to let somebody else have it

Sorry for the mistakes I've done

Sorry for not doing my best

I failed to show how much I loved and cared for you

To thank you for everything that I learned from you

I wanted you to know

That even if I had loved before

It will only be you who'll have my heart

It will only be you who I'd be with until the end

Let me love you from a distance

Let me love you this way

I know the path I'll take is filled with loneliness

But I'll never regret it because this way I'll always be with you

And if our fates would be kind to us someday

I'll find a way to see you again

But if I fail to seek you out

I'll wait for you until time's end

Though you leave me this time,

Put in mind that I'll always be here

You should know that I'm still here waiting for you

LOVING YOU 'TILL FOREVER…

06/08/06 04:50am