Never expected that I would fall
For I thought it was just a simple game
But then things changed
As time passed by
Once hurt, I vowed never to set foot
Never to feel anything such as love
That I'd turn back away
Runaway as fast as I could
But then…
How would I know
That I would feel this way for you
How would I know
That you'd feel the same way for me
I knew all the consequences
Expected hazards that I might face
Anticipated that I might get hurt again
But still, I took the risk
So I embraced this feeling with open arms
And felt the happiness and contentment
That I once longed for
A very long time ago…
I believed in the sincerity
Trust, security, and everything else
Certain that you would keep your promises,
Certain that you would never leave me
You taught me how to laugh
You taught me how to cry
You taught me how to trust again
You taught me how to love and live again
But then…
A relationship could never be perfect
Somewhere, sometime
A stumbling block would appear
Although it was difficult,
I still believed in us
Still believed that we could make it though
Still believed that we could carry on
I admit, I thought that we would fall apart
But I never entertained the thought
For whenever it crossed my mind,
I felt afraid to lose the one I loved most
I prayed that we make it through
Because I didn't want us to break,
I didn't want to fall apart
Because I'm in love with you
So I continued to fight
I relied on you for the strength
Said to myself that it would be fine
Said to myself that I would never abandon you
But it was you who surrendered in the end
How could I continue to fight
If the one I've been fighting for already gave up
And that it was futile to struggle…
There was nothing I could say
Deep inside was turmoil
I tried to hide my pain, my tears
I was devastated at the disclosure
I wished that you could have said that you never loved me
Rather than to hear from you that it was useless anyway
And I hated you for it…
Hated you and loved you at the same time…
You wanted me to make a decision
But how could I make it with a confused mind
I refused to let go of you
But you are already letting me go
Now, I'm thinking
Can I stand alone without you?
Can I really stand alone?
Can I even try?
I said I understand why you're doing this
I said that it was alright
But deep in my heart, reality sinks in
I didn't understand, it wasn't alright
Since it seemed you're setting me free
I'd try to accept it but with a heavy heart
Knowing that I'd be alone for the longest time
Knowing that it would be the last time
For this time, for sure, I'll never love again
That I'm willing to kill all what's left
To let my heart die rather than fill it with hatred
I'd let it die rather than to let somebody else have it
Sorry for the mistakes I've done
Sorry for not doing my best
I failed to show how much I loved and cared for you
To thank you for everything that I learned from you
I wanted you to know
That even if I had loved before
It will only be you who'll have my heart
It will only be you who I'd be with until the end
Let me love you from a distance
Let me love you this way
I know the path I'll take is filled with loneliness
But I'll never regret it because this way I'll always be with you
And if our fates would be kind to us someday
I'll find a way to see you again
But if I fail to seek you out
I'll wait for you until time's end
Though you leave me this time,
Put in mind that I'll always be here
You should know that I'm still here waiting for you
LOVING YOU 'TILL FOREVER…
06/08/06 04:50am