it hurts too much to ever want to see you again.
no matter how many times i've told myself that
i should (/need to) be brave, it's all a lie because
i get a feeling that when i see you again, my knees
will grow weak and i'll take a second glance at the
face of the girl who caused me so much pain). i
guess it's safe to say that i never want to see you
(this is just something that i have to do in order to
even begin to forget) but this isn't just going to be
for the sake of me but for everyone who hurts just
like me (because we bleed for people just like you).

and i have to learn to fight back tears again, to put
on a face, and pretend that i'm doing perfectly well.