A calculating sway
Full hips soft
In the reflections of skyscrapers
I lied, as I always did
For if I have entered his apartment
It was only in dream
And not the stuff of reality
My desire, the same--
Transcendental stuff
In the face of her earthy passion
A questioning glance
Green eyes wide
At the lingering hand near his neck
I asked, as I always did
Never mind that I knew the answer
She confessed
Her litany on the soft dew of his lips lost
To the litany on her aspiration: miscalculated,
She said sadly--
Misplaced
I shook my head
Refraining from what I knew so well
Perhaps I notice too much
In my quest to notice everything
A fleeting look to the left
Left me gasping
A fish out of water and element
I smiled, as I always did
As he glanced my way
Ignoring the creeping sensation
To allow a moment for
Slipping from reality to dream
To imagine a situation for such a lingering look
When one comes to my satisfaction
I look up in triumph
Only to find him glancing again
A tangible push to square one
A fragment of dream
Crept into real life like a delicate moth
Attracted to the fire it had lit
I frowned, as I always did
On those days when priceless beauty comes
At a harder price
Only then do I dare think the unthinkable
And come closer
My heart pounding with some new blood
Coming fast in the absence of its predecessor
Rapid successions, and I am lost
Where collarbone and neck meet
A stark darkness
Surrounded my quivering frame
New distractions—and not the thriller we watched
I followed, as I always did
Leaving no entrance for her to sit near him
There were questions in her eyes
As she sat farther back
But I had answered once, and truthfully—
Or so she believed
So for the moment they died
In the face of entertainment
And I instead kept my ground
We leaned on the armrest in turns
Never touching in our delicate dance
I cursed newfound coordination
A bright sunlight enveloped all
Casting shadows of verdigris
On the warm concrete
I left, as I always did
When darkness faded to light
Leaving no boundaries--
She was shameless
Her smiles brighter than in the gloom of past
And I kept my face down
Stunned at this new defeat in a new element
I wondered to catch her eyes
And stop her tyranny
But she stared only at him
Premeditated affections
Rehearsed in their common nature--
We followed each other's example