If I were smarter,

If I were brave,

If maybe I were stronger,

Or just well behaved.

If I were skinny

Threw up every night,

If I submit

And gave you my rights.

If I were pretty,

If I were thin,

If I were easy,

And I let you win.

If I were shorter

Or just someone else

If I could stop trying

to be all these things.

If I could stop bleeding

If I would stop purging

If I dropped all the pills

If I stopped it all.

Would you remember me then?