I Wonder
Late at night I think of you
When I'm trying hard to sleep.
I think of how things have been.
Then, I listen as I weep.
I've always wondered what would be
If I thought beyond friends.
But so many girls want you now.
I wouldn't dare to make fate bend.
It'd be too weird, I tell myself.
And I know it's true.
Because if I ever felt like that.
As the two of us in love
Then, I'd never be in control
I'd lose myself, I'd lose us.
I always wanted to be close to you.
As close as I could be.
But never in a million years
Did I see the two of us as 'we'.
I've been accused of liking you before,
But never has it been so deep.
Never have I thought so much.
Because always I've been at peace.
I don't even want to think about it.
It hurts too much inside.
I'll brush it away like I always do.
Cause if I don't, I'll die.