3:34am 7/10/06

I'm losing my mind

I'm so melodramatic

I can't eat

I can't sleep

I can't breathe

I'm suffocating

I'm in self-imposed solitary confinement

The days are blurring together

The nights never end

The tears are invisible but they never stop flowing

Would it be better to not exist at all?

I'm not sure

I'm a liar

I'm a sinner

Death is too good

There is no relief

I don't want to live

I can't die

Bring on the pain

Make it all real

Knock me down, I won't get up