I'm holding in this scream,
That's so far up in my throat if it goes any higher,
It will be in my head, you will be in my head.
Because suddenly now that I think about it,
There's so much wrong with this relationship,
And I feel so guilty like I'm betraying someone,
Like I'm betraying myself and all that I have stood for.
And there's this guilty sort of reasoning,
Bouncing around endlessly in my brain,
I thought of all we could be,
And it made me made me feel lonely again.
But somehow I want to be with you,
And I hope that you will always be my everything,
That I can always rely on you to make me smile,
And I am hoping I'll only feel guilty for a little while…
But sometimes you make me wonder about…