Inside you, I wanted to find

the red stars and the blue moons

that had littered onto the purple sky.

wishing.yearning.craving.

to take them out and make them real.


Beside you, I wanted to have

the comfort of warm hands

but they had slid through me, never

touching.feeling.holding

because they were dead.


Astride you, I wanted to break

your ribs and get to your heart.

Then I could ask it why it didn't

see.want.believe.

in me so I could be alive.

Instead of alone.