I wash away unhad memories.
My thoughts all gather into a fantastical youth.
And I wash the things I never had anyway.
No tears fell down my face today.
I was stronger than you asked me to be,
And less emotional then you expected.
I don't cry.
Not for things I didn't do.
I don't laugh.
Not at what life could have been like outside these walls.
I want this.
I am finally doing something,
And removing the pain of the past.
But I can play still,
I still have time,
I can still have the dreams here,
I can be at home here-