Let the
water wash away all sin
From my
body.
For God
only knows,
I am the
happiest sinner alive.
To feel as
I feel.
To love as
I love.
One must
realize that to love and feel;
One must
hate and be numb.
Numb I was
for a time in life.
Cold as
the winter wind,
Blowing
and howling against the barren trees
Stifling
and freezing.
Hate I
felt, still feel,
But harbor
inside like a demon caged.
Vastly and
forevermore
Shall the
visage upon me,
Speak
otherwise of the turmoil deep.
I love
greatly and within passion.
I adore
the entwining of my body
With that
of the one I love.
Fallen in
sin, living in sin
But not
regretting my sin.
I will
never regret my sin.
For to me
it is not a sin,
But an
expression of that of
Which I
think.
What I
think, what I feel
Is to
freely love without certificate.
Without binds yet donning my wrists.
But when
his circlet clamps upon
My finger,
I will
love him and him alone fully,
And
freely.
There will
be no room for God,
In my love
for him.
I only ask
that God understand this,
And would
not banish me
To the
Valley of the Shadows.
For God
only knows,
I am
the happiest sinner alive.