funny how
loss of appetite follows
loss of self esteem
which is chased by
loss of energy
and
loss of control.

funny how you
can't get them back in that order.

if you struggle for control without the energy to do so
you have no chance.

without your appetite,
you don't eat,
and you get no energy

and if you're eating,
you're getting
fat
and that just buries your self esteem a little further.

so once you get to where i am
(no control)
you're pretty much just
fucked.