Watching as time spirals out of my hands and

beyond my control. I must

stay seated here, unable to do. The

Confusion drags me down;

my mind hovers in a grey abyss –

I cannot think.

I cannot act.

Both legs are willing me to stand,

my internal conscious screams to me, yet

I am frozen.

In this moment, I hate myself.

Inability to know has crippled me, and

thrust me

into the blinding light.