Sometimes I wonder

If you're really there

If you're really out there

Somewhere

Listening to me

Sometimes I wonder

If you're real

If you're really alive

Somewhere

Laughing at me

Sometimes I wonder

If I'm your toy

And you play with me

And see how long it is

How long it is before I snap

Sometimes I wonder

If it's me that's the problem

That I'm the reason

The reason you're so mean

Sometimes I wonder

If it's all my fault

I'm the one

I'm the curse

I'm the pest and the nuisance

Sometimes I wonder

If it will ever end

If the pain will ever go away

Sometimes I wonder

Should I just leave?

Should I end it?

Right now?