think i can understand pa.i.n and (lack of) con/fus/i/on
but i don't want to because it sounds pa.i.nful and
not.at.all fun (but what is fun?). oc...casionally i
want to t.ouch you but you've hid yourself again
from my e ve r se.a.r.ching grasp and i'm left
asking myself (again) –do-youloveme (but what is love?)?
('cause it kinda comes across)
(that you don't).