And I don't know where this anger comes from
Maybe it's just because my life is
F U C K E D
It's been since the very beginning
I should have never fallen in love with you
I should have ran before you got me with those hazel eyes
And if I could take everything back now I would
Cause I can't take this pain again
Knowing I'll never have what I've lost
And you know what I hope
I hope every time you hear "Lips of an angel"
It makes your heart stop and stutter like it does mine
I know I have no right no scream and rant
As others do when they right their breakup odes
Which makes this harder knowing
You were perfect (damn you and your perfection)
And I lost you and you know what
Maybe you never loved me but
F U C K I T
I loved you
Scratch that I LOVE YOU
And guess what dearest, I bet you money
I don't have, that I will never get over you
Here's to the painful days to come
Here's to the broken heart that will never get over the perfect boy
Here's to never letting anyone in my heart ever again
Come on cheers to the loveless girl
Because dear in the end I was only your hedonist (your nympho) wasn't I?
And now I'm dead so it really doesn't matter
I just hope one day God has the kindness to put me out of my misery
Be it car crash, burnt alive, murdered, or tortured slowly until death
Nothing can be more intense than this pain I have living w/ out you'
(IT NEVER ENDS!)
And I hope you know that when you attend the funeral
Because sure as hell my friends will know
What cause I died for, the perfect boy that never loved the clingy-broken girl
And yes I will admit I'm fucked up but you are too
You'll just never show it, you fear just like I, angel
But God forbid the girl that never judged you once knows that!
You don't know how much I want to hate you
To find some reason not to love you but there is none
Except the anger at myself that I'm reflecting on you
I'm sorry that I love you so much
That I hate that you're doing this to me
I guess it's true what they say
"Never make someone your everything because when they're gone you've got nothing"
And that's exactly what I have NOTHING!