Inspired by the thought…
Yet denied by my pain
When your eye I caught
Staring through the rain
I thought of the time we spent together
But now, between us, there's terrible weather
I want to hold you close,
To soak in your warmth
To sweetly dose
Away from all that storm'th
I know it can't be so, for the time being
But your smile is all that my heart is seeing
An implosion of feelings
Whenever we touch
Such playful dealings
Like fighting and such
I cannot decide whether to love or to hate
Right now I'm in an emotional straight
Such contradiction
Can't stay away or come near
I can't portray fiction
When I feel so much fear
Why do I love when I'm so scared to feel
I know I need time for this wound to heal
Why do you look
With doleful eyes,
Where is the book
With my record of tries?
I need human touch
But who can give me such,
When it pains me to feel
Anything truly real?
Where is my escape?
For a quick exit,
I scream and I scrape.