Thinking of you with her
Leaves me feeling sick
When did these feelings appear?
I don't know but I hate it.
I should be happy for you both
You are my friends.
But I can't forget the way it felt
To be in your arms and safe.
I hate myself for feeling like this
Dependency and weakness
I appear happy for you
But the tears coming after prove me untrue.
I despise the selfishness
The desire to have you as my own.
Worst of all is this,
I don't think you can face me either.