A/N: WOW! IT'S BEEN OVER SIX MONTHS SINCE I'VE UPDATED THIS ONE! I AM INCREDIBLY SORRY! I GOT CAUGHT UP IN MY OTHER THREE STORIES AND HAD THE WORST CASE OF WRITER'S BLOCK IN MY WRITING HISTORY ON THIS STORY! I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME! PLEASE REVIEW!
Calvin woke me the next morning. Not intentionally, he was softly playing with my hair as I slept. I pretended to still be asleep, not sure if I wanted to open my eyes and face the man I was to marry in six days. Giving in I opened my eyes and was met with a smiling Calvin.
"Good morning." He said still playing with my hair.
"You were troubled in your sleep last night. You tossed and turned all night. Is something bothering you?"
"Did I? No I'm fine." I lied. I wanted him to tell me about the marriage that was a mere six days away. I wanted to be able to trust him.
"Are you sure?"
"Good. Come I have a surprise for you today." He said with a boyish smile as he climbed out of bed.
I climbed out of bed and set my feet against the warm carpet. So he was going to tell me. This made a smile cross my lips. I turned around to find Calvin already dressed and ready.
"I'll send Trudy in to get you ready. I'll meet you out in the back courtyard." He said before disappearing around the door, smile still on his face.
Trudy bustled into the room and quickly selected an emerald green dress. She helped me into the dress and proceeded to brush my hair. She pulled a small amount of my hair back and tied it with a matching emerald green ribbon. She left as quickly as she had come and I made my way towards the back courtyard.
I stepped out into the warm sunlight surround by colorful flowers and green shrubbery. Calvin was facing away from me. His broad shoulders were clad in a dark brown shirt, his strong legs in tan colored trousers.
I quietly approached him from behind. He turned around when I was only a mere two feet away. He dissolved the distance between us in one long stride. He took my hand into his and led me down a small pathway pulling me deeper in the courtyard.
He abruptly stopped and turned to face me. His vibrant eyes shone in the early morning sunlight. We stood staring at each other for who knows how long.
"Do you love me?"
Oh no. Would he never cease asking that haunting question? Why must he ask a question that he already knew the answer to? I had to make a choice. Tell him the truth or lie to his face.
"I.. I am beginning to have feelings towards you." I told him. A little bit of truth and a little bit of a lie.
At first I thought he had become angry yet again. Then I realized that he was confused. He didn't seem to understand what I had said. I had not confessed love for him, yet I had not produced hatred.
"I don't understand." He said looking down at me.
"I am not in love with you, but one day I may be." I said trying to make him understand.
"I wish that the day when you love me would be soon." He said his eyes dropping to the ground.
I bit my lower lip. I still could not understand why he professed such love for me.
"Why do you wish that?" I asked him secretly hoping he would tell me about the wedding looming in the very near future.
"I want my wife to love me, I want our children to have parents that love each other."
Marriage was one thing, but children? He hadn't told me about the wedding but he already talked about children. At that moment I decided to just come out and ask him when the wedding had been planned for.
"Calvin, when is the wedding scheduled for?"
He seemed to ponder for a moment whether or not to tell me. I already knew that in six days I would be married, but if he would not tell me himself, I could not trust him.
"The wedding is in six days time." He said it as though he was ashamed.
Inside I was delighted that he had chosen to share this information with me. However I noticed that he seemed rather unhappy.
"Why are you unhappy? Have I done something to upset you?"
His gaze quickly shot up from the ground.
"No! You have done nothing wrong!"
"Then why are you sad?"
"Why do you think I am unhappy?"
"When you just told me about the wedding, your voice held sadness in it."
He let out a quiet sigh and ran a hand through his brown locks.
"You said you do not love me… yet. I fear that you will not love me when we wed and on our wedding night." He confessed to me.
Oh Lord! He surely could not expect me to willingly lay with him on our wedding night! I could not do it! I would not do it! How could he think such things? True all married couples did on their wedding night but they were in love! I barely knew this man.
"Calvin I.. our wedding night… I cannot-"
Relief flooded over me.
"But it must. It has always been that way and it will stay that way."
My relief, short lived, was washed away by fear and hatred. Did he intend on taking me against my own will? Like hell he would. I would do everything in my power to stop him. I would not give myself to a man I did not love.
I turned and quickly strode out of the courtyard, leaving Calvin behind me confused. I stormed into our bedchamber my anger being replaced with sadness. In could not keep this inside of me. I needed someone to confide in.
I quickly made my way down to the servants quarters making sure I was out of Calvin's sight and praying that James would be there. I gently knocked on the wooden door, holding my breath that he would be here. The door slowly opened to reveal a bare chested James.
"Sorry." I mumbled looking down at the floor and a blush creeping onto my cheeks.
"No. It's fine. Come in." He said moving aside to allow me access into his room, while pulling a worn white shirt over his head.
I walked over and sat down on his small cot.
"Is something wrong?" He asked coming to sit by me.
"It's horrible!" I cried out my tears spilling down my cheeks.
"Shhh. Elizabeth don't cry. What's horrible?" He asked placing his arms around me.
"C.C.Calvin." I managed to get out between sobs.
"He can't be that dreadful." He said trying to comfort me.
"My wedding is in six days, to a man I do not love, and he said that on our wedding night we must-" I broke off into another sob.
"Oh. Elizabeth." He said stroking my hair.
"I don't want to do this." I cried.
"I know, but everything is going to be okay."
"How can you say that?"
"Life puts challenges in front of us to test us. We must overcome these challenges. You are strong Elizabeth you can overcome this."
Strangely his words seemed to comfort me and ease my worries.
'Thank you." I whispered.
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I watched as she stormed out of the courtyard confused. Surely she knew that we would lie together on our wedding night as every other couple did. It was known and accepted.
I walked out of the courtyard my fingers trailing over the small silver ring I had not had a chance to give to her. I decided to return to our bedchambers, hoping she would be there and I could give her the ring then.
I entered our bedchamber to find it empty of her presence. I stepped back out into the corridor, my brow furrowed at where else she could be. I began to walk down the hall and ran into a servant.
"Have you seen Princess Elizabeth." I asked the small boy whose eyes were wide.
"I..I think I saw her heading in the direction of the servants quarters." He stammered out.
"Thank you." I said before walking away towards the servants quarters still confused.
Why would she be in the servants quarters? There was nothing down there. My anger suddenly boiled to the surface as I realized why. The stable boy, James. She was down there with him.
I stormed down the poorly lit corridor passing small wooden doors, until I reached the one I knew to be his. I could hear her voice from inside the room. I threw the door open in my fit of rage and it crashed against the stone wall loudly.
They both jumped and her gaze fell on me. My gaze fell on the boys arms wrapped around her in an embrace. He was touching my soon to be wife, but what hurt me the most was that she seemed relaxed and at ease around him, something she never was with me.
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The small wooden door gave off a loud bang as it hit the hard stone walls. James and I jumped at the sudden sound and turned to see what had caused it. My eyes filled with horror as I saw Calvin's form standing in the doorway.
His eyes were filled with rage and they were focused on James's arms, which still held me. James's words played over in my mind. Life put challenges in front of us, and here mine was standing right in front of me. In all of his furious glory. I stood up from the cot and looked him in the eye ready to overcome my challenge.
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