Existence

sometimes i feel like i'm the only one that knows,
the only one that is smarter than the human world
and still less intelligent in matters of standard minds.
i feel like i'm the only one who sees through
and beyond and around the obstacles in life
to notice the disarray and catastrophes built in to it.
i see life as blurs and photographs and scandals,
every person, a fleck of simplicity in the distance
that truly has no impact but destruction of beauty.

sometimes i feel like i'm the only one that knows,
the only one that fades into the background of society,
and still the single color that glows with something new.
i feel like i'm the only one who sees among
and below and into the meanings in life
to dissect every glimpse of humanity in it's fullest.
i see life as words and tragedies and liars,
every person, a chemical balance of willpower
that truly has no impact but destruction of beauty.