O. T. B. or (Searl and the Girl)
Been two weeks and I still don't feel right,
Is this paranoia all in my mind?
Or is it all just a little more than real,
Gotta know, gotta find out how she feels.
Experience never equals expectation,
Preconceptions only lead to humiliation.
Am I the man I thought I'd be,
Never thought I would happen to me.
I wanna try again,
To prove to her that I'm a man.
I just wanna pretend,
That this never happened.
All I want to do is forget,
But I know that I can't . . .
Saw her for the first time in a while,
Her friends pointed at me and smiled.
It seems to be that wherever I go,
People laugh and somehow know.
I keep my head down afraid of catching someone's eyes,
Said she keep her mouth shut I guess she lied.
All my friends are staying away from me,
I need some help I think I'm a freak.